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i’m fallin even more in love with you…

I JUST HEARD THIS SONG. I HAVE NO WORDS. I CANNOT EXPRESS HOW MUCH I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG. NO WORDS. It’s called Hanging by a moment…by life house.

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started, I’m chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I’m lacking, completely incomplete
I’ll take your invitation, you take all of me now

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There’s nothing else to lose, there’s nothing else to find
There’s nothing in the world that can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing, starving for truth
I’m closer to where I started, I’m chasing after you

I’m falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I’ve held on to
I’m standing here until you make me move
I’m hanging by a moment here with you
I’m living for the only thing I know
I’m running and not quite sure where to go
And I don’t know what I’m diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment
I’m hanging by a moment
Just hanging by a moment here with you
copyright <a href=”http://phonelyrics.com”>http://phonelyrics.com</a&gt; i will wait

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Trey; pros and cons

Pros

  1. He is so cute!!
  2. He is blonde
  3. His. Eyes. Are. Fucking. Gorgeous.
  4. He isn’t overweight
  5. He is funny
  6. He is nice to me
  7. He isn’t Dillon.
  8. He likes to laugh
  9. He is creative
  10. He is smart
  11. He is tall
  12. He is fun to be with
  13. He made me forget Dillon
  14. He makes me laugh
  15. He is my friend
  16. He talks to me, FACE TO FACE
  17. He doesn’t hold a grudge
  18. He knows how to forgive
  19. He smells good
  20. HIS DIMPLES!@#$ %^&*() _=+-
  21. He shows interest in me
  22. He is nice to everyone.

Notice that this list is longer than Dillon’s ever was.

(This took me one minute and forty two seconds.)

Cons

  1. He is cocky
  2. He won’t tell me who he likes
  3. He is very to-himself
  4. We aren’t very close. We’re friends…but not really close.

Okay. I am sorry. That’s all I can think of. I have been sitting here for ten minutes. And I am stuck there. So does that tell you something?


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Things I havent told you. (i have either been dishonest or lied by omission. I want to set stuff right.)

This list is far too long. There are several things I haven’t told you. There are several things I should have told you but didn’t. There are things I was ashamed of admitting to others, until recently. So spare me the judgments, for I have already judged myself. And I finally have the courage to admit it to the public, so that I wont be ashamed anymore.
here’s my list.

  1. I have had my first kiss. This was after I told you I never kissed anyone though. So I didn’t lie to you, I just didn’t tell you.
  2. My first kiss was Robert. That guy I saw for a week, when I thought I was over Dillon. He kissed me (and he wasn’t a very good kisser)
  3. later that week, I lost my virginity. Again, to Robert. I don’t want to hear how I was too young. I have heard. From everyone I told (not very many)
  4. it didn’t mean anything. at all. and that was the biggest mistake of my life.
  5. I am having feelings (strong feelings) for trey, but I am not completely over Dillon.

 

okay, maybe it wasn’t a super-long list. but the lists contents, make up for several unfilled pages.

I am sorry for not being fully honest with you. I regret.


regression and regrets

to regress: the act of going back to a previous place or state; return or reversion

to regret: a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.;a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.

 

I wish Dillon and i had never met. i wish we never started talking on Facebook this summer. Then i would have no reason to cry myself to sleep at night. i wouldn’t have any reason to lie in bed and wonder what i could have changed, what i could have done to not make him hate me now. I still don’t know if that message Monday was worth it or not. i told him i liked him…but it ruined whatever kind of friendship we had. i destroyed everything i was building up on. maybe i should forget about him. oh, I’ve tried. but doing that is like trying to breathe under water….

is it worth the pain?