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I Just Saved 100% On Stress By Switching To Not Givings A Fuck

hahahaha! my lilfe in one picture!!!!!!!! love it! your blog just makes me smile!


loooonnnnnnnggg night…

lots of drama has been happening in my family the past few days. but one thing made it better. I got on Facebook for, like, 2 minutes, while my dad was away. (I was teaching him how to use the computer). he answered his phone and went in his room, so I quick logged into Facebook. remember that message I sent to Dillon that I quickly regretted? well, I finally saw his response.

*** my message

his response(s) ***


do you mean you think I like you or you like me? 🙂
well, I don’t know how you interpret that, but that smiley face just made my week. I replyed:

well, I kinda like you… sorry to embarrass you…

I haven’t seen his response yet.

in other news… I had a robot baby I had to do for a home EC project. that woke me up 11 times last night, so I only got 2 hours of sleep… so yea, I am pretty tired.



never been kissed

remember that one time, about forty posts ago, I said I was going to post a secret at the end of each of my posts so my readers and followers can get to know me better? well, I stopped after, like, two posts, but I thought I would bring it up again for this post…here’s a doozy, fellas. I’ve never been kissed. so, yes, I am still a virgin. I am one of the few handfuls of teens that think it makes you a whore when you lose your virginity before age 16.  just for the record, i am 15.

it sucks. but then again, I have rejected those who have tried to kiss me. mainly because either they were messing with me, they were ass holes, or i just didn’t like them that way… most were the latter. I think with this new information, you will see my posts about Dillon a little differently.

in other news…

i got an email from Dillon. at least i think it was from him. it said it was. but who knows. it could be someone messing with me. but i think it was him. it said he thought i was weird and that he thinks we should keep our distance or something like that.

don’t know what to feel right now.

regression and regrets

to regress: the act of going back to a previous place or state; return or reversion

to regret: a sense of loss, disappointment, dissatisfaction, etc.;a feeling of sorrow or remorse for a fault, act, loss, disappointment, etc.


I wish Dillon and i had never met. i wish we never started talking on Facebook this summer. Then i would have no reason to cry myself to sleep at night. i wouldn’t have any reason to lie in bed and wonder what i could have changed, what i could have done to not make him hate me now. I still don’t know if that message Monday was worth it or not. i told him i liked him…but it ruined whatever kind of friendship we had. i destroyed everything i was building up on. maybe i should forget about him. oh, I’ve tried. but doing that is like trying to breathe under water….

is it worth the pain?

dillon, pros and cons #2


  1. his hair! (I know I put that in the last one, but, really!)
  2. he’s funny
  3. he looks good in plaid
  4. he’s cute
  5. he’s smart!
  6. he’s tall
  7. he makes me happy, just by his presence
  8. he has a lot of friends
  9. he doesn’t care if he’s different
  10. his smile makes my day.


  1. he treats some people like he’s better than them.
  2. he is starting to be a jerk
  3. he is a wuss sometimes.
  4. he makes me laugh
  5. he makes me cry
  6. he said he was my friend
  7. he lies
  8. he is manipulative
  9. he gets in trouble alot
  10.  he goes too far for attention
  11. I don’t hate him.

when you know why you like someone it’s a crush. when you have no reason or explanation, it’s love. –lil wayne

telling someone why you love them is like explaining what water tastes like.

if you find someone who treats you like an option, you’ll miss out on the one who will treat you like a priority.